Hello! Ive been gone for a long time! I know!


These days i shared my jou and sorrow on facebook. The new social platform.

Last few years ive been busy with my career in auditing. Supposingly a very professional occupation in Singapore. Clients always wxpect alot of us. We have to appear well dressed, equipped with sound accounting knowledge and present ourselves well at all times. A very challenging career.

Last 3 years i have travelled to 10 countries, 15 cities on my own. I even made a return to some of these countries as well because i really like it.

Loads of travelling. And perhaps will be sharing them here in future. Took alot memorable and beautiful photos. Its a great experience to travel the world myself. Seen alot. Learn alot. Made quite some friends during the travel too. A very good experience.

Alot friends said im so brave to travel on my own. I actually think it didnt take that much out of me because even in Singapore.. i spent alot of time with myself too, exploring new places. Just that im not familiar with road and transport overseas, so i must admit it do take quite some courage and independence for a girl to roam a foreign land.

On the contrast, i have some friends that can never travel alone. Even my cousin very blatantly told me shes scared to do it herself. I feel its a shame some people had missed that chance, because some of them were married or had children. So whenever they go, they will bring along their husband.

However while travelling solo, the idea is the environment will propel you to make new friends. Talk to strangers on the streets and allow you discover new things that you have never come contact with before. I am so accustomed to it that i can speak to any stranger and make a good conversation. Well. Partly thats my gift and also the nature of my job being an auditor.

I enjoy living out of my boundary. I know im so strong that alot of my potential and good self have not come into display before some people that i know. But i know im such a scary girl because i have gotten the power and strength to go where i want. Anyway stay tune. I will update again.

Hello blog. Since the surface of new social network interface FACEBOOK, i spent lesser time penning down in this blog. It could also be that im busy with work. No day no night. Hence.

Last 6 months im literally gone, from everyone. because ive been constantly spending my time with this particular new man in my life. I couldnt have imagined him coming into my life. Its amazing. I treat him like a good friend should initially. But i'll say it all started with a kiss.

we were just pull together by a magnetic force through words. but i admit there are times when we just dont see eye to eye.

Taking my flight tomorrow morning.

Pretty worn out. Buddha please bless me.

I love my family, cousins, close relatives and great pals.

09082011 is awful.

Wanted to blog sometime back but i have a problem with blogger, hence no updates. If you would like to follow on me, facebook is quicker.

I miss SL, wonder how she is. <3

Alot had happened the past two months. But my body didnt feel that time had passed. Have been busy. And despite having more things coming my way, something in my life never changed.

Its probably you. that thing. and that that thing.

oh life.


Well he said really nice things to me recently. Even though hes harsh on me still well i know thats him for treating close ones. Because his previous lover told me hes harsh in his words all the times. So im taking that he cherish me in a way he gets fed up easily at me. :)

I remember that you are gonna come to me .. .. if .. .. .. if .. :) love you L.

its stupid.

hello sweetheart.

its 230am now. im still not sleeping. well people dont exactly blog hop these days, so hopefully my words to you can get increasingly personal.

I was feeling active at this hour, still. Had a big bowl of the pig tail peanuts soup, it was absolutely tasty. Now as i type till here, i just got myself another hot bowl of soup! Im drinking this late because i mistook there was no soup and little dinner tonight. All cos i told my parents i will not be returning early.

Yes, that explained my vibes in the night. I patronised the gym earlier. Boy lemme tell you its one in a lifetime experience. Ive always seen people enjoying gyming, then sauna then bath and the all lockers toilet scene. Well how magnificient that was! Dont mistake me, ive had bought series of spa treatment but none had fascinated me as much as this. I could even attend the dance classes aerobics stances combat classes. Or even yoga!

This was exactly cool. I signed myself up after a spur of the thoughts on Sunday. Even rang one of my babes up. Yes that my good friend, from my previous basketball club mates, very sweet lady. Anyway she provided just an assurance for me to join, with consideration to the fees. Cos ive decided to give it a try before i dial her number. So yeps, i joined yesterday and earlier, which is the following day. Im there! Working my ass off. Do you know how much pounds ive put on the last 4 months. Right, its 12 pounds! Out of a suddenly i couldnt fit my wardrobe. Yes it wasnt a typo. I could not wear most of the clothes in my wardrobe! Ive been out shopping frantically during the SIngapore sales to replace the clothes. But thought i could have replaced the cost of buying new clothes to buying a membership at the GYM situated at the heart of the city. Yes it cost me one tenth of your 10K. One lump sum. I'm not gonna say hello im rich cos im working and one k is nothing. I dont feel the pinch but i grew up in an average family so i have alot of money sense ok. If im a millionaire i wont be here typing blog. I'll be out making out with some hot dudes OKAY. Im kidding.

So being an adult, its weird to try something unfamiliar. You should not lose your cool yet am excited about all the new facilities im gonna be exposed to. So i treat myself like a lady. Yes. I have a lil bumps here and there, not literally, well just abit too nervous, Cos im acting like i have been a long time patroniser like the oher ladies, who all act tough and strong in the lockers room. Well not that i didnt meet girls like that, ive played around 8 years competitive basketball mind u. We met the girls in the ladies all the times. But i'll say ive been working faithfully and not so remembered how it feels like to meet these ladies. Not to mention at tthis gym here, you have the capable working class frequenting the gym after work, the tais tais, models, girlfriends of celebs, rich, bosses, or just plains. I tried to buff my courage, yes not the body cos too fat. So after i changed out of my MANGO set of working suits, (half suit cos i cant fit the blazer these days!) i am finally looking decent enough in a gym, and the ladies are making way for me. Am i a tad too fierce? Yes i supposed. Dont know why i'd lose the confidence implicitly. Hello who else can be more fierce and stronger than a basketballer?! A centre at that somemore. Well unless u said the athletes who run too well, or the other ardent sports talents. If not i dont really care who the hell you are. All i know is gym has a familiar scent, since i visited the public gym often, whenever i have the time! So no fret no fret. Now evon is growing into a young woman. Cos the ladies were practically naked on the lower or upper body, leaving their old lingerie hanging on them. YUCKS, what a sight. Somemore u knew, they are not young, and i gave you my words, they aint athletes. Just started working out, ABIT, now that they are older. or richer. ehs.

Getting far stretch. Well im so gonna visit the gym everyday. I hope the staffs dont recognise me. Tata.

i let myself go. :)

insofar theres only you on my mind.
only you.
why you just wouldnt bulge, to a platonic friendship.
:)

Ugg im pretty tired now. There were trains of thoughts flowing here and there on my mind. i think my brain will collapse soon if i continue to think like this. It was work, then it could have been the housechore, my terrapin, my plants, then my piano scores. then my work again. It goes on and forth, then back and forth again. I'd wished there were 903785938401 evon, so i can do whatever i like and enjoying them all at the same time. But truth prevails, it was not! Sighs, i had an assignment to close on the weekend, yes i brought work home but i dont seem to be able to get down to it. ugggg. tomorrow i will be off to my client's place again. This time i will be heading to bukit merah for a number of days. but my mind is so tired now. Uggg. Hais must really think about how should i handle them tomorrow..


oh how i miss him. thought we could catch a show earlier but he had a function to attend. i dont care about the credibility in his words. all i know is im taking things in my stride and also to his fancy. I will not force him to do something he doesnt like. AS long as he like it. Till the day my heart finally no longer grow fonder of him, i know thats then i will free myself 100% finally. Please heaven please free his clutch over my heart. over my mind. over my soul. Its feels yucky :)

Hello
i met my sweetheart up around christmas and send him my biggest regards and the christmas gift i got him for him from burberry. I hope he loves it but later, last week he told me its too precious a gift for him. Im glad he has high regards for what i got him. I Ireally do think you deserve the best. just. every good darn thing. I dont want you to despair and wallow in self-pity. I want you to be out there. because you are incredibly outstanding, you'll stand among your peers. I want you to shine because there is so much potential in you. I dont know why. Mostly you are dominating but i dont know why you wanna take the second stand before me. You are up there. I dont know. I have been working on you for four years. till i do, really do feel lethargic sometimes. I feel like giving up but i dont want to abandon a project which i have workedfor so long, i know im gonna succeed in you. Kindly let me finish you before i move on to the next phase. Oh god.

You indeed have a self-absorbed friend here. Yes me. Im pretty busy these days, into myself, my work. Have been working very hard, learning every possible thing i could in the company from my manager and my work. They have proved to be a good challenge. Well i just hope time could be lenient with me and let me finish my job within the supposed dateline. I wanna soar.

Just msned with sok whos doing very well in USA. She invited me to visit her this early summer but i dont know if i should go. Miss her so much man. In the past at least i can ask her accompany me to lunch or a good movie but shes not around these day. Well i think its a darn fab idea to travel around with a mate whos been through things here and there with you back then in sec sch! :) then Yang is going to Czech man thought i might join ting to visit his bro yang during june if we could. argh. It'd be really damn cool. Antique places castles and prague. omg. Jeff asked me to go back with him to his hometown in China in march but i dont think i will apply leaves to go with him. Partly the trip isnt that attractive enough for me to give up working hard on my job in march. Though i would really love to eat all those food he mentioned, and that i will be staying in his pretty house and the fact that he will play host to all my meals and etcs. hmmmm. it'll be lovely to travel with all these people whom i like. :) but i really cant go in march because of an important celebrated day - him. My bud-love cecilia wanna visit japan, but it'll just mainly be a trip i think but i'll definitely not be making trip to japan cos im not a fan. Im more steered towards seoul cos im a major kpop fan. Aiya well..

my co. just sent me to Bintan last week for an assignment. Hopefully they'll send me to China next! I shall work harder. Whats more. oh and i miss those friends whom ive not been seeing. Those that i often hang around while i was in college. But things just get busy. I think the ones ive been seeing these days are my colleagues and my manager. Its really cool to have a male upper management cos you know how much i hate the female management whos fat, short and a tad ugly. I believe when they say their heart is as ugly as how they look. Im not referring those that dont look beautiful and that they have a bad character. its more of the looks being damn unpleasant that you know something not good is coming out of them. Well you know im not someone who discriminates. Just ignore the bad comparison that im referring to lets go back to my manager. Well hes been really kind to me, helping me here and there. But i felt really bad when i couldnt live up to his expectation of me when the job gets kind of tripping here and there. He would spend hours coaching me and guiding me. Do you know audit manager had really a tight timecost to stick to yet he dedicating hours of his time for me each day. Talking to me discussing stuffs with me? He is just fabulous! Sometimes we will work overtime together. And i would feel motivated to work on late nights with him because he is inspiring. He could in few sentences point out my dead weak points and advise me the ways to work on them. The greatest thing is i found them so true and effective, however if i follow what he said. Hes a successful man, having graduate from the top boys school and a good college. Hes everything great a woman is looking for in a man. I know i can rely on him whenever im stuck in my job or reach the bottle neck. Im thankful to god for a man like him. Dont get me wrong here we have nothing going on hes my idol though well you know he has a wicked sense of humour, smiles alot at me and send me winks sometimes. I totally wanna faint. Hes a role model, ive found in my profession. :) thank you.

im falling sick frequently these 3 weeks. Too busy seriously till i fall sick, i tell you. It was msia trip hard work in the office. bintan and then msia trip . then countdown then hard late work in the co. again. plus hardcore shopping for zara mango agnes and all the big brands small brands in town. Time is not enough, seriously hello. argh. so be glad if im going out with you and that im meeting any of you despite the busy schedule. cos i love you guys. and i miss you all.

goodnight, evon.

oh how i miss you.
life has never been this fulfilling. im working mon fri to earn money with my brain and sweat. meeting people from above my level. the finance managers, accountants. CEOs and directors. Recently i was auditing one of the accounts of the established F&B local restaurants, met the chairman and we chatted. He was kidding i could work late over at his semi-office and home property, that has a market price of $3million. His staff were leaving, theres me and the mister only. I like my job because with this title granted to me, i was able to network with people, with ability and status way beyond my level. People respect and love you. I love the mannerism and the friendliness coming from the people, despite the possibility of faking and shallowness. Afterall, people are treating me, nice. Civilization is important, because i stand no gawkiness.
Frequent friday nights, i'll be out there painting the town. ahem, painting the food. Shopped plenty, Ate alot, much laughter. I'll be with my friends. my colleagues. People whom i feel safe with, whom i feel comfortable leaving myself with. Come weekends, i rise early. Visit the markets, immersed myself with aunties, uncles and the marketers. To remind myself that, there could be still the simple and gullible elderly arounds. Those who buy for the family, that means shopping for FOOD to whip up meals for the family says that particular human is carrying with them the purest, pristine intention with them. The thought of this is enough to warm me. Thus, i like, i like to hang around the market with these people. Even it means seeing the bangladesh in the market; who works hard, earns little but is marketing for food to fill their stomachs. smiles.
When i have time in the morning, i'll care for my plants, watering and ensure they receive plenty of sunshine. I love potted greenies and fresh flowers. Also, i have to shrub the mini-pond of my terrapin, communicate with him in case he felt too lonely. Terrapin is a lonely creature, fortunately, they love solitary, so it doesnt matter i only spend my time with him on the weekends. Human is different, we felt lonely in the heart most of the time but, we do not love the feeling for long. Occasionally in the afternoon i'll bang on the piano; i have alot scores waiting for me to play but ive been busy recently. Same goes to my books, who are laid, too neatly in the bookshelves. Argh need to flip them soon. I read alot too, and then appreciate a good movie in the evening. If not for the aforementioned, i'll sleep alot like i never do in the weekdays. Pretty true, i never sleep enough on weekdays. hees. Now my sister insisted i played Khalil Fong's song in the background. I told her, i wanted either an english or korean song to be played. But well, we played "Nothings gonna change my love for you". This sings into my heart. No matter, where i was, where i am. He never leave my thought. Hes there with me, in my thought. I imagined one time, if. If hes dead somewhere someday, i'll be unable to take it. But i'll mourn for him like a widow. I'll be with him throughout the wake, i'll cry relentlessly. I'll take care of his family for him. To me, it'll be the highest level of love that i could give, him. Im pretty happy with my life these days, but without him, its never, ever complete. Thought i should work hard to fill this empty piece of puzzle of my heart. But i dont know how much further i have to go to warm his heart again. His heart, who has long given up on everyone, including himself. I went to his house yesterday. Just wanna caught a glimpse of things that associated with him; and i'll be contented. Just like i used to do; driving to his house everyday after school. Not a stalker, but i want him safe and sound. Even if it means watching him afar, even if it means, watching him with someone he love, from afar. I dont mind. I saw potted plants outside his home. The number grows. Well, hes someone with enormous love, that he has to water them into his plants, feeding them to his pets. He kept a fair amount of pets. Oh god how i need him by me now. At times, i couldnt help, i walk to his door and stop. Hes just within 3m-4metres from me but we are like worlds apart. As the saying goes, "my love is before me but he dont know i love him".

If i had to live my life without you near me my life would be empty life would be so long.
i miss you, only you.

강타-그대여서
Kangta - because of you

오랜만이라는 인사는 유난히도 어색하지만
o rae man ni ra neun in sa do yu nan hi do eo saek ka ji man
很久沒見的問候 格外地覺得尷尬

잘지냈냐는 그 인사도 왠지 예전관 다르지만
jal ji nae nya neun keu in sa do waen ji ye jeon gwan da reu ji man
問你過得好嗎的問候 不知道為甚麼已與從前不一樣

아직도 변함없는 건 그대를 향한 바보같은 내 맘이죠
Ajik do byeon ham eob neun geon keu dae reul hyang han pa bo gat teun nae mam mi do
仍然沒有改變 面對你 傻瓜一樣的心意

오랜시간이 지나 오늘에야 나 그댈 볼 수가 있죠.
O raen ji gan ni ji na o neul re ya na keu dael bol su ga it jyo
很長的時間過去 今天我才能見到你

내게 거짓말 같은 시간이 오늘을 지나 내일도 흐르겠죠.
Nae ge geo ji mal gat teun si gan ni o neul ni ji na nae il do heu reu ge jyo
對我來說像謊言一樣的時間 今天過去了 明天也會過去

지금처럼이기를 기도하죠.
Ji geum cheo reom I gi reul ki do ha jyo
祈禱能像最初一樣

우연이라도 그대를 마주치면 그걸로 난 충분하죠.
Wu yeon ni ra do keu dae reul ma ju chi myeon keu geol ro nan chung bun ha jyo
就算偶然遇到你 我也心滿意足

그것만으로 난 사랑할 수 있겠죠.
Keu geot man neu ro nan sa rang hal su it ge jyo
這樣我可以愛你

적어도 하루는.
Jeok geo do ha ru neun
至少一天



my tears rolled off my cheeks INSTANTLY when it came to the chorus.

Its a wet sunday afternoon. Mummy went for her dancing competition, brother was in hongkong for a a company meeting. Sis went out to do her project, dad went to joined his friend at the shopping mall to drink coffee.

Im practising songs on the piano but my heart couldnt focus. Felt pretty tired. Tried to record a video of myself playing the songs, it was quite cool but im playing all the old songs. This past 4months couldnt really concentrate on learning new songs. So i stopped to facebooking and browse around. Most of the weekdays are spent entirely on work, so i could only have time for myself on weekends. This morning i was gardening, watering them and ensuring they received sufficient morning bask. Bathed my terrapin and fed it vitamins. Tried to read a book but couldnt continue too. Isnt there alot of things on my mind? Yes this is how complex my mind is. I wish there are 10 of me to do all the things i like. I feel like visiting starbucks now for a coffee with my laptop and also, probably a book on auditing but there might not be anyone to accompany me, so i dropped the idea. I dont mind sitting there alone, but im just afraid no one to tend to my things if i wanna visit the loo or what.

I find it warmth to stay at home alone, it was serene. Since its pouring, i could smell rain and life. Im pretty much a sensual lady, with overflow emotions. I like my life with a lil drama, not a hackneyed plot.

Well youtubed and found a new vid on KANGTA. Yes he has come back from army since Feb. Now he has a new chinese song released in China. Goddarn he is still as drooling-handsome! Come sweeping me the way he did before. Thats why ive laid my eyes on him years back. I knew he'll still be glowing ever ever. Never chose the wrong idol! That goes the same for my love. Once ive chosen him, i'd not pledge loyalty to just any other. Too bad he didnt know about it. Because hes a stupid big boy, naive at everything. Hate myself for loving a kid.

Work is satisfying, i enjoy working. As the saying goes, if you enjoy your work, it'll no longer be work. I never once dreaded my work before. I really love it. I treat it as a learning journey, like how i learn in school previously. Everyday im exposed to new clients, new accounts, new stories that were hidden behind the figures. Hopefully i can work harder and climb up the corporate ladder in a few years time. I enjoy meeting the rich clients, helping them to audit their management accounts, making sure that they comply with the regulations and rules of the standards as required locally. Thank you god for loving me, cos i love you too.

Now let me share with you the comeback of my beloved, Kangta: Love frequency.

Hello, i have been absent for two months.



Because your dear evon has been working.

Yes working, not working hard.

Its 2.39am now, ive just reached home around 2am, had my dinner at 2.20am and then the drinking the soup my mother brewed in the day earlier. Yes im still not workiing hard, just working late.



I enjoy my work. I enjoy going to work. I enjoy working. Im learning things on top of the context i get from books in school. I used to learn to read. Now i learn to do. It made me satisfied. Alot people said auditing and accounting is boring. I beg to differ. It could be pretty interesting if you know how to make it interesting. It very much depends on your perspective. Im feeling kind of sleepy, or you should say sleep deprived. So this entry is going to sound very wrong as you read through. Well i cant just sleep right yet though because of the two big bowls of soup iv gulped down. Too full.



I dont know what i should register in this entry for tonight. Randomly: Time, MY TIME has just passed like this. Why i say my time because i felt time wasnt in my hands these days. Okay apparently i know time wont be in our hands literally, its on the watch probably. I was both happy and sad that time slipped away this fast. Because when i wasnt attentive to it, it'll steal some of my important intangibles with it. Such as memory, knowledge and maybe my friends.



As i grew older, i feel that my social circle is shrinking increasingly annually. To begin with, i dont keep alot of friends from the beginning because i dont like to hold them on. I cant handle too many emotions at the same time when i cant even do so to my own. Hence around my late teenage years, i have stopped acquainting new friends. While at the same time i try to keep myself close to the few close good ones. Sigh, talk about this . I dont miss her at all even though we didnt see each otherr for more than a year. And worst, we are not keeping in touch. Ive changed my number and i didnt notify her. Basically i feel i dont have to tell her about it since shes not going to call or message me in months. Im really quite angry with her who could also not contact me for such a long period. I know i'll come to regret it but i have no choice. When one wants to leave, i wont say too much. Its not dignity or the ego. but when u want to leave, if i try too hard keeping you, ultimately we will still part due to differences.



Some of my close friends are not on talking terms with me. I find it a pity. I have been a great friend whom you need to take time to know. I always ask myself and the heaven the reason these friends took their flight from me. BUt when i sort out the reason in within, i felt at peace. They are just too folly to realise they have just miss a gem. :)

The Youth Olympic Games Opening Ceremony was awesome. Its the deemed performance Singapore should have put up for the Singaporeans to see, long ago. An intertwined of technology, sound lighting effects and plenty of fireworks. I was high-spirited before the television, constantly gasping at the programs the ceremony brought to me. Thanks to the host Olympic Council, and probably the fast-moving economy in Singapore the last twelve months, that the organizer is able to set a higher budget which presents such a fanciful ceremony for all to see. For, the world to see. If not think, they wanna spend tons of money to let you see such beautiful effects?

Its all about fame and name.

Earlier on was a random post i should have written long ago.
this one is the more relevant one.


im down.

i love my sister alot.
im so gonna bring her out to buy her favourite style of clothes when this busy period is over. gonna buy her nice things, that she'll NEED. Cos she has very bad eyes; like, buy already then dont really use. Im a little different, my eyes fancy alot of things but i buy them, use them, and cherish them. Though shes one heck of a thrifty girl, she have yet to apprehend what it meant by cherishing things sometimes. I dote on my sis alot because shes my soul mate, my perfect assistant, my counsellor, my playmate, my companion, and my thrashbag. She took all my nonsense yet shes always the one standing by me no matter what. At times she rather sacrifice her benefits to exchange for my happiness. I took all these to heart. I told god i will reward my sis in anyways that she needed my aids all my lifetime despite that i will chide her should she misbehave. I understand how a teenager has terrible needs for material items at their age, especially under the influences of their peers. Not to mention shes in such a good school where the rich kids are a dime a dozen. Give me time, i will slowly prove myself to be a great elder sister. I used to be selfish, not wanting to share my everything with the new sister when my mum just gave birth. BUT now i cant thank god enough for bestowing me/on us this priceless gift. Shes a treasure.

im down.

阿密特-分生

This week i met Siti on one of the weekdays. We met at town, as usual went dining and shopping. Treat her to a simple fare at one of the most recognized malay stall at Far East. She surprised me with a packet of CHEESE popcorn too. Good girl, cos she knew i love CHEESE. Very happy to hear about her recent doings and that her plan with someone will be going smooth. As her friend, i hoped to be there when this important event take place. Not that i wanna be there at house for it, i meant celebrating with her when it comes, hopefully together with Shuying! Things could turn out very good for my friends and me because we enjoy each other and living. In the society there are always some girls, who constantly look for a greener patch of friends, fight for attention or scheming to overshadow their friends. Im glad i was not their friend and that gods had sent me angels all the time. Thank you.

It has been two weeks at the client's place. I thought it will end before the two week. Never to think it actually continue till next week. I think this senior pretty likes working with me that he extended my project time with him. However no matter what, i still will put forth my best during working so that no one can gossip about my efficiency. Infact, half of me want to go back to the HQ cos i miss my colleagues and the enjoyable lunch time session, half of me wanted to audit outside. The latter, cos of freedom, exposure and freedom. You know i never like being tied down somewhere. I rather walk, run, fly!


This weekend has been great for me. Manage to spend alot of time with my family over enjoyable meals and leisure sessions, able to get down to my stuffs, settle my things. I also get to cook over the weekend. Aglio Aglio Spaghetti, w white button mushroom. Fish soup noodles.. The spaghettie taste good, just a tad too oily. I'll make sure i whip up different spaghettie every few weekends cos its my love! Well if you are close enough, you might even get to taste a plate someday! hehehe. OMG just realised i typed spaghetti with an E. I never ever do that, why?

This weekend i supposed to accompany my friend out but i cant afford the time. Sometimes things just get kind of get me very occupied~

Bro went to England for almost a week already. Haha. Can tell he enjoyed himself alot in the UK from the photos he uploaded. Anyway, i cant really feel that hes away since most of the time he was seldom home, and only returned home only in the night. :)


Watched Prince of Persia with my friend yesterday. Cos hes paying with credit card, so we actually get 2.50 discount off each tix! Great i love discounts as it made the movie more afforable! It was a great movie as it far exceeded my expectation! It was intensed and breath-taking, i totally love it. It has been long i was this much captivated by a movie. So im really happy. Not to forget, we had a feast before the show and also a limteh session after that. Reluctant to leave for home, we took a 2 hours stroll and have a very nice chat in amidst. I dont know, i totally love the whole night cos it had been very enjoyable for me. :)



This afternoon i went out and had a hairdo at the salon together with Gerald. Cost me two hundred. Omg, heart so pain cos my initial budget is merely one hundred. Kill me kill me. Oh my penny. No choice, for the professionalism of an auditor, i have to sacrifice the ... pennies!

One of my buddies stood me up.
I dont know if i can say he stood me up because he smsed he cant make it, in the afternoon. He claimed that he sent to my old number? Ok, he probably save two numbers in the phone and thus the mistake. I only come to know he cant make it at 6pm when i wanted to acknowledge the meeting time. This goes to say, practically, when i was about to knock off, then i knew my date was off and im left on my own. I almost blow up. Initially i almost had other plan till he kindof 'beg' me to meet him before his overseas trip. He was on low morales and wanted to tell me everything. Now he cmi~

It was friday evening, an important day to me a working adult. Out of a week, i love friday best. A perfect evening to unwind, enjoy food, company and the night scenery. Im not gonna dress up and come out on weekends. For weekdays, i'll be busy or it'll just be a random dinner somewhere. Everytime i'll make sure my time was put up to good usage. It had been a busy period and im sure my schedules will be even tighter. I had SOME close friends that i need to keep companion and spend time with. When i allocate time to you, i expect you to cherish it as much as me. If you missed it for no apparent reasons, you can forget about joining the queue again.

Needless to say, im terribly disappointed yesterday. Luckily another close friend of mine saved me in my distress. I gave him a call when i left the firm and ta-da, he was there for me. Im so thankful for kind soul like him. For people (kindsof matter to me) who fly my aeroplane, i'll be seriously disappointed. Why would you choose the other matter over me? Im a reasonable person. Too sensible and reasonable, so hardly i wrong anyone. Theres so much to tell. Im so angry; that he will slip off the good friend list. He can forget about the umpteen good treats and gifts, my encouragements and the rest of the intangible or tangible values which im gonna so provide him. If you are ever sad about your games, dont call me or complain to me in the night again. Dont tell me your dreams and that no one understands. I wont be there to spend hours listening. My terrapins died yesterday and when i had my lows, did i ever tell you, or anyone? Even though im terribly upset, i make sure i cater to my friends' needs first. I'll smile, listen and offer. I dont have to take the second seats when it comes to friendship, i could be the dorminating party or the influential one if i'd like to. Im trying my best to be the bestest girl friend to everyone, i just hope they'll cherish it.

Im a good friend to everyone but not someone at your whimsical dispense. Want to be on my favourite list? Try to find out my dislikes and the red areas then! Im easygoing and super nice but i had my boiling point. Yes, one folly mistake is enough to trip. You can try appeasing me but i had already drawn away my deposits then.

哭的好伤心。
cry my lungs out, because my terrapin babies left me!
the moment i reached the doorstep, not bothering to kick off my heels yet i rushed to their artificial mini-homepond. Like my parents described to me, they kept themselves in the shells and were not moving. I knew this will be coming.

Last week, mother's day, after the sumptuous tim sum meal, i accompany my mum around to shop. Later she wanted me to go home with her but i insisted on buying one more small terrapin to keep the two biggies at home company, and also i wanna buy a pet fish. How would i know my sudden urge last week would have brough upon such a tragedy to my most beloved terrapins! For fun or what, i actually kept the fish together with the terrapins on Friday, thinking turtles can co-exist with fish in the school pond, in the river, in the ocean! Who knows, they are not accustomed the new visitor to their home. And then they were acting weird on Sunday morning. Not eating, not swimming actively. NA! Same as the previous terrapin. I knew things were wrong so i immediately seperate the fish from the terrapins. Keep them under the sun for an hour on monday onwards. Who knows. They could not survive through and left me this afternoon! But then the young terrapin that i bought back to join them actually survive the ordeal! I dont know why!


I was so upset, cried for an hour. Then got myself up and went burying them in the soil in the neighbourhood. They often make me laugh and can entertain me for a whole day, or the whole weekend! I'll love you all my life. Your face, your reactions, the way you moved, the way you eat, the way i bathed you guys. They'll be enshrined in me i promise. I cant forget you. Please come tto my dream if you are able to. At least we can talk. I love you my terrapins! I love you so much.

just now on my way home my sister called me again to confirm their death because my parents not sure if its hibernating or what. I told them to leave it alone first, wait till i get home. Who knows since its my sister who confirmed it over the phone, i trust its credibility. I almost wanna burst out crying on the train. My tears were rolling in my eyes but i had to control myself. Like i always did, reading the papers in the train. But, my mind was not on the words. but Images of the times i had with my terrapins actually surfaced in my mind. Now as i typed this, i could feel that tinge of sadness biting onto me. I lvoe them so much.

why. why left me!

left 5-6 hours for my sleep to build my energy for tomorrow. I was just back home a while ago. Was with Cecilia at town. dinner was at marche which i love them for their, ROSTI, CREPES and SAUSAGES. We went on to chat outside ION before decided to head home. On our way two angmohs came up to us for directions to hyatt hotel. Being nice, i try to tell in a few english words the direction to head to. The angmohs were warm and very thankful. He immediately grab my hand. I shake it almost instantly too, its courtesy. Then he totally plant his mouth on my hand, and gave it a very very wet deep kiss. FCUK YOU. A peck will do. FCUK YOU! Not that i was not acting gentlemen enough when i saw there are a few passerby, but i totally feel very eww as its too wet. I then wiped it away on cecilia's arms. haha! ok and my own shirt. I didnt want to be this small a miser, but its too wet.

i know you.
i heard yours.
why let me know that.
you are crying.
you know i'll know.

It has been slightly a month over, and today i went to audit my client alone! Cool! A lappy in the right hand and alot of files in the other, on my 3 inch high black velvet heels. I walked down the robinsons in black, flagged down a cab and off to my client's place. Everything is cool till, i alighted the taxi. I forgot the receipt. This means no claim for this outgoing trip! Second, i directed the driver to the wrong block. No wonder the weird expression when i told him i wanted to alight there. Luckily the right block is just within 30metres away! Well things are fine for me and i hope it will persist. Just no more little woman, i mean short woman, they are always up to mischief. SO ARSEHOLEs. It doesnt mean you couldnt reach a certain height, your intelligence has to sacrifice!

sometimes its pretty bored to go home alone after work. Today i had A to chat with me along the way. i didnt know he'd cherished our friendship so much. Im glad he told me all those words. Am surprised and very touched. Anyway hes really blessed. A rich dad. doctor brother. Affluent contacts. Drove a cool BMW, and is a guy with lotsa inspirations. Someone with such a background to actually be this sweet? omg, I hope his papers went well!

menses are approaching. My emotions are having its roller coasters ride for the month free. How nice. Vexed vexed vexed.

very tired. because of the 5.5hour only sleep the night before.
Yes i need at least a 7hour full sleep to feel vibrant, at full force for work now!

Yesterday ive finally went to THE HELIX!
The bridge ive been anticipating for two years back. From far, the view disappointed me. I remember the artist impression revealed a blue lit-ed bridge and i was looking for something near that. Luckily upon reaching the venue, the bridge proved to be magnificient enough, at first glance! I was quite impressed with the solar panels on the top and the combination of glass and metal for materials. Appeared pretty high-ended.

Thanks to Edmund because we went there together. Arranged to meet after our work ended. Hes currently having internships at one of the big four audit firm, whose office is in town too. About.. 10mins walk away from me. Very nice of him cos he came to meet me downstairs my building! Initially wanted to lurk around the area, for a good cafe or pub. You know Raffles is one of the best places for them. When we saw that the sky is overcast, we decided to head for Marina Square. In the end we settled on Esplanade Harrys Bar because of the valued FISH CHIPS!


Well the papers said the Helix signifies the bridge of friendship (for the youth olympians, wanting them to compete with not only sportsmanships. And also making friends at the same time) So i hit my fist with edmund at the bridge yesterday. Hope our friendship can sail forever. Theres also the pocket stretching outwards from the bridge. On the ground, there are certain alphabets and i manage to find a "A" and a "+". I told edmund, stepping on them ensure an A+ for the subjects he took. Yes, following we stepped of them profusely! One of the pockets had a "C+", so make sure you went to the correct pocket! However the construction isnt all done at the site, so halfway we were actually blocked from heading further. I look forward to the project closing by the end of this year. Seriously i dont think by JUNE it'll be ready. They still looked too raw!

The angst has been boiling since morning.

since i woke up to find the hill opposite in clouds of haze. Just like the weather, it has been gloomy for me. Easily aggravated today. Try to force a sweet smile but inside im screaming. I dont like his word but it totally described my mood today: sians.

Its May of the year.
Reminding me the hardest period i ever ever had, last year. That May seems forever and my neck waited so long for dawn to break. I was vulnerable and poisoned. Was sentenced to do my time. Seasides and the night spins were the escapades. Cos, they gave me sorta adrenaline rush. Not having to feel the worse emotions. They have the ability to numb me. It was a horrifying experience never ever beknownst, to me. If i ever lost control of the steering wheel, or myself at the terribly high speed that very second~ i dont even wish to think.

Today im of gratitude. Im thankful. That faith i have in my family, god and time. That.. my family is always standing by me. Providing me solid rapports. That.. god always listen and is pushing me on.. onto the correct path i should rightfully take. That.. time is always the best remedy.

For many times last may, i am very lonely. Not the simple kind about having anything, friends or no. Its the soul. No matter whats in front of me, i cant see them. Very dark. Very. Everything is in motion other than me. Im stationary. Physically im somewhere. Infact im sailing on the black seas of sorrows. My emotions are in turbulences. At times when im reminded of that, im still pretty shook. Then i'll giggle to myself ... Once bitten, twice shy? I hope experience can avert any future tripovers, if they could. Thank you, i am breathing.

Happy Mothers Day to my mummy
and all the beautiful mothers around the world.


I may not understand how much this day mean to them. Hopefully one day i will so i can go through how my mother felt on this day. It will be amazing and ... weird! This year's meal is a little different as we went for a timsum feast instead of a common dinner celebration. Less stressful. Saving the need to rush home after food. Towards the end of the meal, we raised our glasses wishing mummy a happy mother's day and papa his advance birthday. It has been an extremely satisfying meal because back home, we hardly eat anything for dinner. Supposed to whip up spaghetti in alfredo sauce with my mummy. We even shopped for more ingredients after lunch. I anticipated all those clatterings of the pots and plates in the kitchen! Alls too bad~ The jelly she made yesterday night is left untouched in the fridge too~ I dont know why i miss cookings with her but this says im seldom home on weekdays afternoons. Cos, my mum usually dont touch the stove on weekends.

It has been a great sunday anyway.