Yesterday i came home in the wee hours even i have a lecture in the day. An afternoon lecture luckily. I wasnt in the mood for decent work, school work. So i went out whole day, found dearest gerald to listen to me, my story. And also to have a good let out, before someone close. Cheering me up. Treating me cakes and good food. In the past, i dont really wanna be in doldrums for long before it bored the heck out of the ones around me. but now, I really needed someone to be there. I admit. I do, for this period. Just let me be, this period.

When the dawn falls, i left for home, to find myself, wanting to be alone at the seaside. So off the route home, i drove over to my favourite hangout. Grab myself a drink. If there were beers, heck no. Pulled over my jacket. Wound down the window. Blast my favourite music and stepped out to enjoy the breeze. It was a cooling night, with the crescent moon hanging above.

There were a few cars here and there, even on a weekday night. I reached for my phone; wanting to dial for someone. just to tell them i was at this place. Dwelling over, over my (lost)love. I called Cecilia. Shes on her way home after closing her business for the day. I sat my butt comfortably on the railings, staring at my reflection from the window and was reminded of the times when hes around. Chatted a while with her, then i was taken aback by what she suggested. "why not we drove over to come find you right now?" Its her car but her boyfriend was on the wheels. I remember her bf was one hell of a racer, as in, he speed damn fast. I knew it isnt going to take her long to reach my spot but then shes coming from Pasir Ris! Extremely far.

Less than 20mins later. There she is. My Cecilia, with her boyfriend. Really very touched that she really did come down! Coming for me without a notice. I was almost freezing, my heart, before shes here. Thanks god that she came ~ ~ ~ and squeeze me with a warm huggg. Although i knew i'll be fine all by myself, im putting on a pretence. If i could, i'll wet someone's shoulders if im in the appropriate mode. Cecilia joked before her boyfriend, that i was her FULL TIME lover, her boyfriend was the part time one. >.<

Never to think, together with her boyfriend, cecilia stayed by me, for 5 hours! Even if her boyfriend has work in the day and she has had a long day at her own shop~ As we get thirsty and hungry in the midnight, her boyfriend drove to get food back. It was an enjoyable night as cecilia and me shared with each other our secrets. At times, cecilia's boyfriend will even join in our conversation, providing me helpful tips, on my that guy. And you can tell how warmth and fervent he is when he suggested those. Really very funny because i think its really the first time, that im engaging alot of helps from the ones around me. Pulling me together. Other than the couple, the rest too. Thank you buddha for bringing these people into my life. Without them, it'll be difficult to go through.

Our traces. Cecilia's and mine.

Yesterday, i think the three of us really had a great time together, as we crapped over romances, money and marriages.

Im growing up. I never like to talk about such tales with people. Because i dont like myself to gossip about anyone or be too involved in someone's story, afraiding i'll get too nosey. Yet now, as i begin to open my heart and shares my woes with the worthy ones, i find myself learning more. Cuz at the same time, they are telling me theirs too. To help me see the situation better. At the end of the day, i knew time will be my remedy. For certain. As hard as a situation could get, you wont regret engaging the help of time.


so its thursday today! im gonna face the music in lecture tmr, all thanks to HIM.
:( my homework package was a flop.

i like the lyrics of the song i post up previously. Mcphees singing whats on my mind.



Everytime just when I thought I was done
he'd pulled me in for another run.

And when I want it to be over.
when I so want it to be through.
In the end somehow it always comes back to him.