feel like selling away my car. been rather down on my luck after buying it. gonna be two years already. I believe as you let go, better things will come my way. Or probably in a few months, i shall change a new 2nd hand car? SPORTS CAR I PRAY!!! Just worried it will be out of the budget. 1000$ expense. car or other usage?

Alright, never mind. Last few times when i went out, i did try to convince myself to walk or take bus instead. When im on the bus, i feel the same. its the same old transport which i had used for 19 years. Everyone is taking it too, why not me? Somemore, im just only an adolescent. No one will bother if you drive or no.

im fine with anything. as long as i live and is still breathing. im pretty optimistic with everything. Think about it. i did have a headstart into cars way early than people around me. Its a blessing yes. But also making me feeling very detached from the society. I almost dont know whats the latest fashion trend. Whats the coolest speaking style. What newest electronic gadgets do people usually carry these days. Or the most popular handphone.. because you often see people frantically smsing or playing games on the train..

Since i was young, i was given very sufficient pocket money to last my spendings. In secondary school. i was one of the few to have a handphone in class. Then it was laptop, during that year, not much people had one... In university, dad bought me this car which i really love alot. I admit as time pass, everyone will then begin to possess these items but it doesnt hold much meaning anymore does it. Like owning a car when you are still attending school and owning a car when you already started working. Its different. When you work, everyone could buy a car. But weigh it another way, some people work hard and then strive for the things they wanted in life. Thats not too bad too. Well , one of my regrets is not being able to backpacking overseas for a long stay alone when im still a student.. Too expensive and i have no time to. Anyway i guess i was pretty lucky already since im not from a wealthy family. Im always thankful for whatever i have. Thank you god. I will brace myself better and accept the challenges that i will face in the future.

im especially fussy when its come to time and experience. Because at different stages, it holds experiences for me. One of the examples will be air stewardess. Im sorry but i seriously think being able to travel around through working as an air-stewardess and travelling due to business trip or holidaying is different. The latter appeals more to me because you are paying the airtickets yourself. The first one, put it bluntly. Its only higher class waitress and the standard of air stewardess dropped so much, these days! -.- Akin to one of my girlfriends' theories. She hated people who purchased branded goods overseas and then flaunted in front of her. Her explanation was, if you have the money, please buy it in Singapore. It was way cheaper when you bought in the europe, us or uk..

i dont know. since a child, i felt i often had a too down-to-earth quality in me that im very different from most of my classmates. i believe, with sincerity, it'll fetch me to where i wanted to go.
no matter what i own or dont own.
ups or downs.
im still me. love me for who i am.
i'll love you too.