late evening i stepped on the gear and drove up to my hideout again. A place to release my emotion from within. It has been accumulating in me over time. i need to spit it out. Pulled over by the sea side, switched to my favourite korean ballads and then tears were trickling off my cheeks almost instantly. As if i could hear them hitting on the seats. i wound down the window, raised my head and pondered. It was the same old navy blanket studded with the little diamonds but they, propelled me further into solitary tonight. I dont understand why it could really get this awful occasionally. The heart does not ache but the floodgate wont close. Melancholy in the wind and sorrow in the sea. I feel the agony of woman in love; lost in love to be exact.