I have a nostalgia for the olden days. That time i was being me. I was successful and very happy. I voiced my mind and let myself be known. No hyped no gloss just me. I wont say i changed too much but i realised i cater better to the feelings of those around me now. Know what to say and not say, diplomatically. Sounds very sweet but i know my face will sell me out. Because im no good an actress no matter how long time grinds me. What time could offer was probably few more railway tracks on the forehead and the cheek line. Just being very truthful and sincere. Do you think that will bring me very far? I shall let time unveils the answer. And that says i have no answer for myself.

There were occasions i followed feelings and found myself regrets. Im not sure if feelings fooled me but i know the one who said follow your feelings was a dumbass. So being sensible and theroetically politicall-right is better than emotion-oriented? At least i was on the right track to what i wanted. Without falling too hard. Like i said, feelings could have fooled us because it faded off quick. Nevermind, such confusions in picking what to say commonly occur with acquaintances. Its never a problem for me with my close friends or relatives, so it doesnt matter.

Talking about fooling. I hope to bring out the best but i think my appearance is hindering the professionalism required in me in my line. As a (junior) auditor, i seek the need to present myself sleeker. Now i have to lose 10kgs in order to fit in the nice dresses i fancy at the boutiques. And to avoid the unwanted opinions about me. I wanted an image suitable for only me. Losing weight has been on the top of my resolution list every year. I applaud its stamina for it doesnt get pushed out the top after so long!

Pray hard it finally does within these 1000 days.