Out of da blue.
Nono, its actually that i've always been thinking alot of:
my ytss bball teammates. All of them.
my best pal, sweeling.
My old cliques during ytss times in the classrooms
Male buddies @ the 219 basketball court
my yuhua/tw, home u ex team mates.
my close friends/classmates all the way since primary sch till sec sch.
Jjc and bball acquaintance
AND a whole LOAD of people i often hang around with.
sometimes i think i just had this very high self-esteem and pride. Usually, i chose to avoid and run away, instead of facing the music when the friendship is on the rock, despite the other party had already given in a step. Like what ive said in my earlier post, I like changes alot at times, without realising that once u let go or change the present situations, things would not go back the same old way. Once theres a crack on the bottle, the crack always remains.
Looking back. i felt pity and ultra-stupid for letting some of them go into another's hands and disappear away from my life. Occasionally i think managing friendships are similar to relationships. You let them go, and they fall into hands of others, other friends. It pains me alot. Those memories. Infact without so much happenings, i still wouldnt had learnt how to treasure friends. I was once somebody who had too much friends, cliques or acquaintance, that i neglected my very own true friends who really wanna leave traces in my life. i still remember. It always happened. Now im recalling how much ive hurt my best friends, good friends and close acquaintance. Im usually absent on the gatherings, lunch time, excursion giving the reason; training, another outing, too tired . . i couldnt care much that didnt i. I wonder how miserable my partner my friends had felt when im not there. She must have been lonely. Felt so out of place and shes glad that there are still some other friends that are there for her. Now thinking back, ive made a number of friends cried didnt i.
When tears rolled down and they said im sorry. What did i do? I ignored her, didnt me? im not anybody bad, but you know pride eat me up. Now those scenes still appear vividly in my mind. i felt a squeeze in my heart. So whatever sadness im feeling at some point in time, i'd treat it as karma. Be good people. So when i pondered over the past, i dunno why i can manage to meet so many nice people and having so friends. You see, i really like those times in school, when i get all those respects and greetings. At least people sees you as one human being unlike in poly, where there are bitches dying to get you down, spread your bad or roll their big staring eyes when they sees you down the corridor. This is telling me how inferior they'd felt that they are deprived of superiority if they never do this. Hello. Theres are like 388028214849 untold ugly truth about SBM. Esp that lethal weapon - tongues. Usually i think we all knew the ugly facts that had been going around, just that no one is really willing to touch on the sensitive topic.
Just like Singaporeans isnt it. We aint very objective. Hence when we are feeling that we knew alot, infact alot foreigners are mocking at us in the dark.
Rightfully till the ends, i think human errs all the time. Probably thats why when a certain human Z is commiting the mistake, other onlookers ABCs who are not, think that Z is foolish. Its all bout perceptives isnt it. Well if only people can love the world big-heartedly, accept each other's faults and then help them mend the ways. I dont want everyone to end up the fishmongers way. In addition, i think i understand adults more as i aged.
As why they always said they dont want to grow up, why they always tell me its blissful to be a child despsite the heavy homework, why adults USUALLy take trains alone, Why there are women who shopped alone. why there are people who HAVE to lunch alone on the hit tables in the foodcourt. i used to find them lonely. Actually now i realised they are independent, and its not that they have nobody, its just that they care brave enough to face and be in the corner of the world alone for a short period. After that (work), they still can meet their friends, went home for their family didnt they?
Its getting long and dull and that my eyelids are halfway close, It was 1.23am and i just had 8 hrs of lessons till 9pm. Okay. i knew my philisophies dont end here. I'll be back. Annyeong.
Nono, its actually that i've always been thinking alot of:
my ytss bball teammates. All of them.
my best pal, sweeling.
My old cliques during ytss times in the classrooms
Male buddies @ the 219 basketball court
my yuhua/tw, home u ex team mates.
my close friends/classmates all the way since primary sch till sec sch.
Jjc and bball acquaintance
AND a whole LOAD of people i often hang around with.
sometimes i think i just had this very high self-esteem and pride. Usually, i chose to avoid and run away, instead of facing the music when the friendship is on the rock, despite the other party had already given in a step. Like what ive said in my earlier post, I like changes alot at times, without realising that once u let go or change the present situations, things would not go back the same old way. Once theres a crack on the bottle, the crack always remains.
Looking back. i felt pity and ultra-stupid for letting some of them go into another's hands and disappear away from my life. Occasionally i think managing friendships are similar to relationships. You let them go, and they fall into hands of others, other friends. It pains me alot. Those memories. Infact without so much happenings, i still wouldnt had learnt how to treasure friends. I was once somebody who had too much friends, cliques or acquaintance, that i neglected my very own true friends who really wanna leave traces in my life. i still remember. It always happened. Now im recalling how much ive hurt my best friends, good friends and close acquaintance. Im usually absent on the gatherings, lunch time, excursion giving the reason; training, another outing, too tired . . i couldnt care much that didnt i. I wonder how miserable my partner my friends had felt when im not there. She must have been lonely. Felt so out of place and shes glad that there are still some other friends that are there for her. Now thinking back, ive made a number of friends cried didnt i.
When tears rolled down and they said im sorry. What did i do? I ignored her, didnt me? im not anybody bad, but you know pride eat me up. Now those scenes still appear vividly in my mind. i felt a squeeze in my heart. So whatever sadness im feeling at some point in time, i'd treat it as karma. Be good people. So when i pondered over the past, i dunno why i can manage to meet so many nice people and having so friends. You see, i really like those times in school, when i get all those respects and greetings. At least people sees you as one human being unlike in poly, where there are bitches dying to get you down, spread your bad or roll their big staring eyes when they sees you down the corridor. This is telling me how inferior they'd felt that they are deprived of superiority if they never do this. Hello. Theres are like 388028214849 untold ugly truth about SBM. Esp that lethal weapon - tongues. Usually i think we all knew the ugly facts that had been going around, just that no one is really willing to touch on the sensitive topic.
Just like Singaporeans isnt it. We aint very objective. Hence when we are feeling that we knew alot, infact alot foreigners are mocking at us in the dark.
Rightfully till the ends, i think human errs all the time. Probably thats why when a certain human Z is commiting the mistake, other onlookers ABCs who are not, think that Z is foolish. Its all bout perceptives isnt it. Well if only people can love the world big-heartedly, accept each other's faults and then help them mend the ways. I dont want everyone to end up the fishmongers way. In addition, i think i understand adults more as i aged.
As why they always said they dont want to grow up, why they always tell me its blissful to be a child despsite the heavy homework, why adults USUALLy take trains alone, Why there are women who shopped alone. why there are people who HAVE to lunch alone on the hit tables in the foodcourt. i used to find them lonely. Actually now i realised they are independent, and its not that they have nobody, its just that they care brave enough to face and be in the corner of the world alone for a short period. After that (work), they still can meet their friends, went home for their family didnt they?
Its getting long and dull and that my eyelids are halfway close, It was 1.23am and i just had 8 hrs of lessons till 9pm. Okay. i knew my philisophies dont end here. I'll be back. Annyeong.
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